Personal · Thoughts&Reflection

Happiness

In this time of hardships, where do you find joy or happiness?

I am a person who’s always in deep thought of true meaning of happiness. I even disagreed with someone’s Philosophy that “Happiness is the goal of life.” For I believe that not all things that makes us happy are good and we always have to evaluate that.

I must admit, I have been unhappy these days and smiles are nowhere to be found. I have been swallowed by my past and present circumstance. But while I was praying, God reminded me that He’s the ultimate source of joy and the only thing I should do is surrender. I wildly cried as I poured out my heart but you know what’s the best part? I found joy, happiness and peace after. It will only be found in Him.

I hope today, if you are looking for joy, happiness and peace, you come to Him because He will be glad to take care of you. (Matthew 11:28 & Deuteronomy 32:10)In this time of hardships, where do you find joy or happiness? I am a person who’s always in deep thought of true meaning of happiness. I even disagreed with someone’s Philosophy that “Happiness is the goal of life.” For I believe that not all things that makes us happy are good and we always have to evaluate that. I must admit, I have been unhappy these days and smiles are nowhere to be found. I have been swallowed by my past and present circumstance. But while I was praying, God reminded me that He’s the ultimate source of joy and the only thing I should do is surrender. I wildly cried as I poured out my heart but you know what’s the best part? I found joy, happiness and peace after. It will only be found in Him.I hope today, if you are looking for joy, happiness and peace, you come to Him because He will be glad to take care of you. (Matthew 11:28 & Deuteronomy 32:10)

Personal · Thoughts&Reflection

Consistency

Lately, I’ve been thinking of people who tried to be in a relationship with me, especially this quarantine and I saw one characteristic to them, inconsistency. All of them are good starters but couldn’t finish. They all end up leaving without notice too! And I must admit, it’s frustrating but I cannot control them Still thankful to God since He showed me that those were not the love He wants for me. Surely, many of you would agree that not even your spouse could satisfy the love we all yearned for, only God.

God’s love is so pure, consistent and unconditional.

I remember one time when I was in the height of struggling with my depression, someone wouldn’t talk to me unless I am doing great in my spiritual life. It was so conditional to the point that I want to force myself to be okay just to be able talk to her. But again, God convinced me that it’s not the love He wants for me and he reminded me of His love. And as I continue to struggle, God showed me more of His grace and love that I can’t even imagine. I was brought back to the cross, His greatest public display of affection which is my favorite. Who would be willing to love us when we messed up? Who would be willing to die for us? Who would forgive us when we repeatedly sin? Who would love us without condition? Definitely none but Jesus. And what’s the best thing about this? He is consistent. Remember that He is the same yesterday, today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8)

Videos / Songs

New Song

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When the rain isn’t stopping
When the waves are not calm
When my worries rise and I can’t control
You remind me
Ohhhhh…

Chorus:
When I am weak
I am strong
For your grace is sufficient for me.
My fears
Are all gone
For your love dispels it all

Bridge:
Where would I be without you
Where would I be without you, Lord
Where would I be?

Suggest a title please. 🙂
PS: Bear with the imperfections.

Encouragements · Thoughts&Reflection

Restless?

Lately, I feel restless. I feel so tired at work, but still, I can’t sleep. My mind doesn’t stop thinking.

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Then God reminded me of a word He kept in my heart in the start of the year. It was about Ruth being restless too because she needs to get grains for them to live. I must admit that it’s really worst to have anxiety attacks especially when you need to work for a living. However, I was also reminded of our front liners today who has been tired at work and worried at some point that they might carry the virus and spread it without knowing to their loved ones.

Aren’t we are all tired? Tired of this battle in the mind, with the virus, with work, and others. And the good thing about being tired, we can be comforted and we know that at the end of the day, even if we felt alone, even if we thought no one is listening, God is there.

In 2 Corinthians 1:3 it says there, “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.” Amen. Let us also remember His promise, Hebrews 13:5, “I will never leave you or forsake you.”

What I realized these days that I have been tormented with worries are: 1. God is in control no matter what. 2. We need to cling to His promises and always take heart! 3. Always be grateful in every circumstance. That’s a good heart check. What’s in your heart these days? 3. God’s comfort will always suffice. Sometimes, despite the genuineness of our friends we know that something is missing and “Everything’s gonna be okay” will never be enough. Seek God.

What are the sources of your tiredness these days? Is it your work, family, worries about the virus, provision of family needs? Know that we have one true God who will always be there for us no matter how tiring it is. Let us cast our cares to Him and be comforted by the One who truly cares about you.

Jesus left a note on your table as a reminder…

I hope that everyone will be filled with God’s grace and love today. Good night!

Thoughts&Reflection

Vulnerability

Sometimes, it’s hard to be vulnerable to people even though you have been friends with them for years. I experienced rejection before and I have been anxious to open up because that person might leave me just like the others. I even remember someone told me, she is like walking on eggshells whenever she talks to me. So I asked myself then, should I say anything then? Maybe everyone feels this way. Not that I just started to conceal how I feel since she said that but I was more convinced that it’s the best thing to do. So I continued hiding how I truly felt because I was afraid that people will feel the same way or might leave. I even thought, God might feel that I am way too sensitive. He might be complaining about how emotional I am, how high my anxiety level is and how depressing my thoughts are. I am so afraid that He’ll get tired of me and leave.

Then He talked to me through a verse…

And calling to him a child, he put him in the midst of them and said, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.  Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. -Matthew 18:2‭-‬4 ESV

Today, He called me out to really COME to Him as His daughter. He reminded me to tell him everything, humbling myself before him, acknowledging that He has power over my situation, that He is my Father and that I fully trust Him with my life. Isn’t it great to have a heavenly Father who doesn’t invalidate how we feel rather acknowledge them? Isn’t it great to have a wonderful Father who listens and stays? I think it’s AWESOME.

Remember that even in our darkest hours, He was there loving us. (Romans 5:8) He accepted us. (Romans 15:7) He promised that no matter what, He will never leave us nor forsake us. (Joshua 1:5) And all we need to do is come to Him. (Matthew 11:28-29).

Personal · Thoughts&Reflection

On becoming First Choice

“Do I deserve to be a second choice?” We all have seen this question before and maybe even you already asked this question while re-affirming your worth.

I then remember one preaching about Ruth. It struck my heart because the pastor regarded her leaning on leftover grains as ‘getting leftover love’. And then he asked, “Have you ever felt like you are picking a leftover love or significance from your parents, friends, or other relationships?” And all I know is that I have been there but I don’t want to feel that way anymore. I am so done.

We love because he first loved us.   -1 John 4:19 ESV

See, even God gave us his FIRST so why are we settling in second place? He also gave his best and all for us. Remember that the greatest public display of affection was done on the cross. This even convinced me that we don’t deserve to be a second choice.

But the question also bounced back to me?

Does God deserve to be the second place in my heart? I choked. That struck me even more. This reminded me then of a commandment from the Lord.

But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. -Matthew 6:33 ESV

Seeking the kingdom is seeking the King. Where will the King be anyway? Remembering this, I evaluated myself, did I make the King first in everything I do?

As a single young professional, I want to establish a good long-lasting career so I always make the extra mile to excel. That’s not bad but I saw myself being too busy taking care of my job, making everything else second in my priority lane. I felt so guilty.

The Bible wants to remind us this:

fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.  – Hebrews 12:2

He must increase, but I must decrease. – John 3:30

I am thankful for God’s wonderful reminder of really seeing Him more than seeing myself, making Him my top priority every day. And I realized that I will never be the top priority because He should be that one. And I will always be happy to be the second knowing He is the first choice. And it will be enough that I am God’s first choice over being somebody else’s first choice.

Personal · Videos / Songs

Song Cover

(Sorry for the low-quality video). This was taken on my birthday last year and I really miss singing (and even playing instruments). I am currently at my aunt’s house right now (due to lock down) and I have no equipment with me here.

Sharing my favorite song declaring God’s dominion over all the earth. I hope you listen to this song.

Have a blessed day.

Reading · Thoughts&Reflection

Stretch Out

Then he said to the man, “Stretch out your hand.” So he stretched it out and it was completely restored, just as sound as the other. – Matthew 12:13

According to Merriam Webster dictionary, the definition of stretch is, “to make (something) wider or longer by pulling it”.

In this verse, God commanded the man to stretch out his hand and when he obeyed, restoration came. I believe that as we obey God in stretching out our patience, humility, or love, we restore many things like relationships, friendships, and other important things in our lives.

I pray that today as we choose to obey Him, we see His hands restore many things in our lives.